have you ever felt this way?

This is a very interesting performance for sure, but mostly I just love this song--it is my new favorite. If you really listen to the lyrics, they are absolutely beautiful.

"Glitter In The Air"

PINK

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don't care

It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the ice burg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before lightning
The breathe before the fraze
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
You're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touch so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breathe before the kiss
And the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

La La La La La La La La

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee,
Calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breathe and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?
Tonight

SUNSHINE, my one true love...

Oh how I am in love with the sun, I can't even begin to tell you--it's nearly impossible to be sad on a day like today, it's just absolutely gorgeous. The only problem is that I want to play with the sun instead of doing homework... oh bother. I spent the afternoon outside enjoying the light Spring breeze and the blessed warmth of the sun--like April 25, not too hot and not too cold, all you need is a light jacket. Dear Sun, I love you dearly.

"A cloudy day or a little sunshine have as great an influence on many constitutions as the most recent blessings or misfortunes."

Joseph Addison

Genuine HOPE is NEEDED

“Genuine hope is urgently needed in order to be more loving even as the love of many waxes cold; more merciful, even when misunderstood or misrepresented; more holy, even as the world ripens in iniquity; more courteous and patient in a coarsening and curt world; and more full of heartfelt hope, even when other men’s hearts fail them. Whatever our particular furrow, we are to ‘plow in hope,’ without looking back or letting yesterday hold tomorrow hostage (1 Cor. 9:10).” Neal A. Maxwell, "Brightness of Hope,"Ensign, Nov. 1994, 3 I've got nothing to add to that--just that you take it to heart and live it every single day.

stop fighting

“Stay at home in your mind. Don’t recite other people’s opinions. I hate quotations. Tell me what you know.”

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

It is important to form your own opinion. Today, on my way home, it started to precipitate. I couldn’t decide what it was, so I asked the cute guy at the intersection if he thought it was snow. He said, “Yes. It looks that way.” I didn’t buy it. I wasn’t sure still. So, I extended my arms and walked around like a robot stuck in rock-em sock-em motion to see what the precipitation landing in my arms were like. I’ve decided that it was hail. The point is, we don’t always have all the facts. When we don’t, it’s easy to get swayed by other people’s opinions (because most people have some opinion on everything). Gather your own facts and make your own decisions. It’ll most definitely be a happier trip for you and others who might be the subject of your fact finding (And…I may or may not be secretly in love with everything Ralph Waldo Emerson says. No, I don’t mimic him. Okay thanks).

(http://yourbiggestfan30.wordpress.com/2010/03/09/“stay-at-home-in-your-mind-dont-recite-other-peoples-opinions-i-hate-quotations-tell-me-what-you-know-”-ralph-waldo-emerson/#comment-20)

Amen to Elein--LOVE YOU--all I've got is a huge resounding freakin' AMEN to that! I'm tired of others relying on someone else's words--most especially when those words totally don't portray their beliefs--why go against your own beliefs? your own feelings? who you TRULY are. It's not always easy, but when you turn to God He will show you who you really are, and even better, who you can really be. :)

Be yourself--that's who we love. <3

happily ever after

Earlier today this is how I felt--a seriously amazing optimism toward life ever after:

CINDERELLA

BELLE

SNOW WHITE

SLEEPING BEAUTY

LITTLE RED RIDING HOOD

THE LITTLE MERMAID

JASMINE

But... let's think about this. True, Disney does do their thing and disnefy the world to a ridiculous extent, but is happily ever after really such a fairytale? I'm being absolutely serious: the world sucks, I'm not going to deny that for one second. However, while the world may suck, does that mean that our lives have to? No--today it rained and snowed, and after such a beautiful Spring morning, I was very irked with the universe. But then as I was walking home, it occurred to me (yes, I have amazing epiphanies sometimes) that there was absolutely nothing I could do about the weather, and no matter how much I wished for the warmth of the sunshine, it was going to continue snowing. In resignation I looked at the mountains, framed by a strange mist-like form, and realized just how beautiful this storm was. I mean, really, it was absolutely breath-taking. Suddenly, whereas the wind and rain had been bitter bullets against my skin, they became icy cold kisses, waking me up from a long dark dream. It wasn't the Springtime sunshine that I am always so found of, true, but there was beauty in it none-the-less. It's not always the easiest thing in the world (believe me, I struggle with it all the time), but you can find the good everywhere and in everything--beauty is in every piece of intelligence on this planet, you just have to be looking through the right lens to see it.

"It is only possible to live happily ever after on a day to day basis."

-Margaret Bonnano-

comfort

FREAKIN' AMEN TO THAT. A THOUSAND TIMES A THOUSAND AMENS.

it's never too late

Recently (as in the past few months, but especially the past few days/weeks) my mind have been blown by so much wonderful knowledge, I don't even know where to begin. However, as a mortal human being, once overloaded with such enlightenment, I suddenly find myself saddened, knowing how this knowledge would have helped me in the past. "If only I had known..." right? I know you've all thought that at one point in your lives. We all do. Because seriously, if I had only known ________ maybe things would be better.... WRONG! I may not be very good at it, but the thing is, the only way I could have learned all this amazingness that I have now was going through the past, sometimes the hard things or the dumb things or the heartbreaking--that's how we learn sometimes. A mistake is only a problem if you learn nothing from it. I know personally, I am a hands-on, experience-learning kind of person, so I should be grateful that I know what I do now. Maybe back then I wasn't ready--maybe I had to go through those things in order to progress. Instead of looking back full of regret, I am looking forward, applying what I do know now to the NOW.

IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO BE WHO YOU MIGHT HAVE BEEN.

-George Eliot-

Do I ever wish I had done things differently? Sure. Do I wish I were better sometimes? Of course (I am a reforming perfectionist, admittedly). But that doesn't mean that life ends here--there are such things as second chances! and third ones, fourth ones, and on into infinity. Does it really matter how many times it takes to get it right, if you do get it right in the end? Life has absolutely no room for regret. Look forward. If you've messed up (and we all have), get over it and keep moving forward. If you don't go forward, you're going to go backward, and that's not going to get you anywhere. I know what I know now for a reason--I don't know exactly, but I'm going to do everything in my power to apply it and make life the masterpiece it is meant to be.

Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long. We KEEP MOVING FORWARD, opening up new doors & doing new things--& curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.

-Walt Disney-

some days aren't the best

Today has been a day, yee-haw. I'm so ready to... ugh, I don't know... I should have gotten my homework done hours ago and been sound asleep, and yet here I am. I haven't slept a wink all week, I've been sick in every possible way you can imagine, and when I finally did make it to bed (thank heavens), I knelt down to pray and knelt right in the largest puddle of dog pee I never thought could come out of either of my puppies. AH!! It gets better--I go upstairs to get cleaning supplies--we were out of course--and on the way back down stepped in dog-crap. WHAT THE HECK UNIVERSE, HOW HAVE I OFFENDED YOU??! Both of my stupid dogs are house-trained, but of course they decide to freak out tonight. UGH. So life is just beautiful right now. I'm all alone here in the stone-cold basement and all I really want is a little bit of understanding. That's really all I've wanted this week--all I've ever wanted...

What a coincidence. Elein, I love you by the way--this post is perfect for this wonderful week:

“To effectively communicate, we must realize that we are all different in the way we perceive the world and use this understanding as a guide to our communication with others.” ~ Anthony Robbins

The hardest part about telling people how you feel is that there is a risk they will reject you. Telling your feelings can include disagreeing with someone, telling them you love them, or whatever else you treasure or hold close to your heart. It’s hard to pour things out of your heart only to know that there’s a possibility that what you say will drive you two apart. However, there is a positive side. There’s a chance that your voice of love will bring you closer together. There’s a chance that what you say in disagreement (in a concerned and loving way) that you will get through the hurdle and become closer together. When expressing disagreement and disappointment, realize that you don’t know everything. What we perceive can only be a small part of a large situation so you don’t want to make the other person feel betrayed or hurt (although it might happen no matter what you say). And when they do reject you, give them some space but be available. And if you happen to be hurt, then talk to them about it. Trust that your relationship is strong enough to endure little bumps and flourish in spite of them, because bumps will always come – no matter what your relationship is.

http://yourbiggestfan30.wordpress.com/2010/03/02/“to-effectively-communicate-we-must-realize-that-we-are-all-different-in-the-way-we-perceive-the-world-and-use-this-understanding-as-a-guide-to-our-communication-with-others-”-antho/

Girls are like... then what does that make boys?

Girls are like
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who's brave enough
to climb
all the way
to the top
of the tree.
borrowed from megan

You're PC Maintenance

I'm OCD, totally admit it. My life must be clean; it's not that I'm prissy in the way of avoiding mud and fun (I will play in the mud any day), but things must be clean by the end of the day.

If I don't clean my computer every couple of days I freak out. However, I just realized that I have only been cleaning the OUTSIDE of the computer, not the INSIDE! :O Gasp! I know. For those of you who have missed this vital process (it is really hard to do the inside), click HERE and the inside of your screen will be cleaned for you!

burned biscuits

No one's perfect--that's one of the trials in life, and yet one of the wonderful tender mercies that makes life so beautiful.

"Another error you might easily make in dating is expecting to find perfection in the person you are with. The truth is, the only perfect people you might know are those you don’t know very well. Everyone has imperfections. Now, I’m not suggesting you lower your standards and marry someone with whom you can’t be happy. But one of the things I’ve realized as I’ve matured in life is that if someone is willing to accept me—imperfect as I am—then I should be willing to be patient with others’ imperfections as well. Since you won’t find perfection in your partner, and your partner won’t find it in you, your only chance at perfection is in creating perfection together."--President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly." --Sam Keen

My Grandma sent this to me in an email, and while I'm not a huge fan of forwarding, it has a pretty good message:

Subject: Burned Biscuits

When I was a kid, my mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in particular when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work.

On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage and extremely burned biscuits in front of my dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed! Yet all my dad did was reach for his biscuit, smile at my mom and ask me how my day was at school. I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember watching him smear butter and jelly on that biscuit and eat every bite!

When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mom apologize to my dad for burning the biscuits. And I'll never forget what he said: "Honey, I love burned biscuits."

Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if he really liked his biscuits burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, "Your Momma put in a hard day at work today and she's real tired. And
besides - a little burnt biscuit never hurt anyone!"

Life is full of imperfect things.....and imperfect people. I'm not the best at hardly anything, and I forget birthdays and anniversaries just like everyone else. But what I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each others faults - and choosing to celebrate each others differences - is one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship.

And that's my prayer for you today. That you will learn to take the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your life and lay them at the feet of God. Because in the end, He's the only One who will be able to give you a relationship where a burnt biscuit isn't a deal-breaker!

We could extend this to any relationship. In fact, understanding is the base of any relationship, be it a husband-wife or parent-child or friendship!

"Don't put the key to your happiness in someone else's pocket - keep it in your own."